monkey nonsense

so i did it.

for those of you who’ve been keeping track, the past 2 years haven’t been the greatest for me. here’s what i’ve accomplished:

• broke 2 IBM keyboards (popped off keys cannot be popped back in place), popped off 3 Dell keys
• picked up a propensity to curse, only when related to one thing
• picked up a shorter and shorter temper, a quicker and quicker snap judgement
• picked up an inability to seperate my frustrations from the rest of my life, resulting in a huuuuge decrease in the quality of life.

on valentine’s day, my parents finally told me it was ok. honestly, it was the happiest i’d been in nearly 2 years. freaked out briefly when some friends tried to talk me out of it. i respected their advice and wanted to follow it, but i also knew that i couldn’t. i just didn’t have enough in me to continue. i held out hope that i could make it work out.

the final straw was this wednesday night. i ended up leaving work earlier than i intended to to attend to some business. when my cell phone (which i already knew had crappy reception in the house) stopped working, i proceeded to throw a tantrum (yeah, i would go so far as to call it a tantrum) for nearly a hour. i’m not even sure why i got so angry, just that i was really frustrated by everything. i got so frustrated that i was exhausted after a hour of being angry and fell asleep.

so i did it thursday. and i haven’t felt this relaxed in a long time. i’m sure in a few weeks, i’ll come back down to reality and be stressed again (this time for another reason). but for the time being, this is the best i’ve felt since graduating college. i hope this is the start of getting back on track.

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