time management
there are 168 hours in a week.
after accounting for commuting (2 hours x 5 days a week), work (8 hours x 5 days a week), and sleep (8 hours x 7 days a week), there are 62 hours left.
then add in optional activities (tutoring 2 hours per week per student, usually not more than 2 students at a time, plus 2 hours on tuesdays), now it’s 56 hours.
what do i do with those 56 hours… 56 hours seems like a lot! yet, i always feel like there’s not enough time in the day. my room is perpetually a mess… it never gets cleaned 100% before it gets messed up again… it’s not even really set up since i moved in… in july! i constantly feel behind in my television watching! i’ve never made it to the gym regularly like i keep telling myself to. other things i wanted to do – learn guitar, learn to cook, etc. never get accomplished. honestly, while i do play games a lot (lately it’s been guitar hero on wii and conflict on the xbox), it’s usually “just” one day a week where i get my fix in… granted that’s like 5-6 hours done all at once. but still, that should leave me with 40+ hours to do other things!
then, when i do hang out with others, it’s not a waste of time exactly… ’cause it’s not. =P i definitely enjoy hanging out with other people and it’s quality time spent with others, getting to know them, etc. etc. but despite hanging out, i can still feel awkward and uncomfortable around people. even among close friends, i feel as if i’m slightly disappointing them because i’m not more normal like them. (hey! no weird comments! >:O i am the epitome of normal. if you looked up normal in the dictionary, you would see a bad picture of me picking my nose.) so then, even my time spent hanging out with people ends up being unproductive because of the feeling that i’m not being social correctly.
the worst feeling i get about this wasted time is, for lack of a better word, return on (time) investment when i do do something. i’m a pretty anti-social person. most of the things i listed above really don’t really need to involve other people. yes, i’m a hermit. so maybe that’s why i feel a lack of ROI… since most of the activities are very me-centric. i watch tv. i cook dinner. i go exercise. so when i don’t accomplish those things, well obviously it ends up being rather disappointing. then add to the stress of hanging out with others, then even my time spent hanging out with others ends up being disappointing.
perhaps the only time my time feels productive is when i set a high score! 
i definitely want to use my time more productively. i think the conclusion to all this is… i should spend more time on games like desktop tower defense and cranky crabs! so that i can set high scores and be productive!
